Friday, May 25, 2018
Monday, May 21, 2018
🐦🐦 Look at these two lovebirds. PUN INTENDED! I have wanted to find their little egg filled nest for weeks but have refrained from looking so I didn't ruin the beautiful process of this little family. They haven't been on our grass for two nights so I'm thinking the mom took the goslings down to the lake.
Sunday, May 13, 2018
Happy Mother's Day to the world's greatest mom. · My Mother kept a garden, a garden of the heart, She planted all the good things that gave my life its start. She turned me to the sunshine and encouraged me to dream, Fostering and nurturing the seeds of self-esteem. And when the winds and rain came, she protected me enough-- But not too much because she knew I'd need to stand up strong and tough. Her constant good example always taught me right from wrong-- Markers for my pathway that will last a lifetime long. I am my Mother's garden. I am her legacy- And I hope today she feels the love reflected back from me - Author unknown
Saturday, May 12, 2018
Monday, May 7, 2018
Sunday, May 6, 2018
Happy Birthday Pop! I've been trying to think of something witty or poetic to write in honor of your birthday but I decided it's okay to keep it genuine and simple. Thank you for everything you have done and continue to do for me; your patience and kindness keep me afloat. You are the strength and foundation of our family and I feel truly blessed I get to call you dad. Those who know and love you will agree with me when I say that the world would be a better place if there were more people like you in it. I love you.
Friday, May 4, 2018
Wednesday, May 2, 2018
"People only see what they are prepared to see."-Ralph Waldo Emerson When I was young and naive and, well, a bratty teenager trying to find my place in the world, I believed that once I had a job and was on my own that everything would be perfect and life would be a piece of cake. I was so wrong. Adulting is hard. Looking at what I thought I knew 10, even 20, years ago compared to what I actually know today is significant. Add another 6-ish years to the knowledge meter and I'm almost embarrassed by the dead air sitting in the middle of the spectrum. 26-ish years ago was my prime. (Prime? The stupidity.) I was driving, dating, and preparing for my adult life. Then I went away to college and apologized every year I was away for everything I had ever said and done that was mean. I had learned that my parents were not the enemy and that graduating from high school was actually the beginning of "life" as I knew it. Fast forward a few years to the mission field and humility kicked in. Jump a few years to college graduation and getting a job and, well, I was not in love with being an adult. Teach 8 years at CHHS. Get Master's Degree. Teach at SLCC. Continue to be poor. Live at home. Have 13 surgeries (from birth to the present). Surgeries don't work. Unable to have kids. Become sicker. Realize that marriage isn't in my future. Get Mia. Lose Mia. Have nervous breakdown. PTSD kicks in. Depression. Anxiety. . . . . ummm, is there a reset button? Anyone? Anyone? Between the twists and turns, I've learned to survive. I've learned that life is hard. I've learned that family is of most importance and that I need the Savior and the gospel. I've learned that loss is my greatest fear, that guilt can consume you and that happiness requires work. I've learned it is okay to cry, to grieve and to walk away and take a break. I've also learned that not dealing with trauma doesn't make it go away; it will eventually consume you. I would not have been ready 27- ish, 20, even 10 years ago for what I know right now. Perfect lives don't exist. Knowledge requires preparation and preparation isn't easy. What I see today is not what I saw yesterday and won't be what I see tomorrow.
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